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February 27th, 2005

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February 15th, 2005

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February 14th, 2005

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February 13th, 2005

11:58 pm Have decided to fast for a week. (Maybe more if I do okay. You can supposedly fast for four weeks if supplemented with juice.) Mainly to just get rehydrated, lower my stress levels, and kind of get in touch with myself. It will be nice to just have water and ice (and the occasional cup of unsweetened tea) for a week. I've heard it really helps mental clarity. My excuse is "If Ghandi could do it, why can't I?" Shut up, we have the same Myers-Briggs personality type..I can be like Ghandi if I want. Though maybe I'm just being weird. God damn it, why can't I sleep? Arg, I'm like fucking wide awake. I need to exercise more, then I'll be able to sleep. To do (later): Exercise, fast, and lose weight*. (*That's always on my list of things to do. I hate being a yo-yo-er. Especially when I don't eat bad food. Minus the ethnic food that's bad for me, that I don't eat too often anyways. Like Indian. Someone should go Indian-fooding with me when I'm done being a fasting person.) Life, you suck. Happy Valentines Day, fuckers. Current Mood: crushed

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04:56 pm Thank god for full fat, full sugar Valentines day candies. Mom always pulls through with her little box of chocolates she gives every year. No matter how depressed I am, it seems to cheer me up. Just a little constant thing that I know will never change, unlike some things. Though I think what I miss most about being little is those heart-shaped lollipops with the little messages on them that came off in one lick. I haven't had one of those for ages. Valentines day is so about candy. Screw that love shit. I still wish I could spend Valentine's Day with a certain someone...or any day for that matter. Hopefully the chocolate can fill that void. Now to be fat and content on the outside, lonely and insecure on the inside. Current Mood: fat and craptacular

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February 12th, 2005

09:46 pm - To fill the void... (stolen from Jenn) 1-WHERE DO YOU LIVE? Fuquay Varina y'all. 2-SEX OR ICE-CREAM Cuddles. WHAT COLOR UNDERPANTS ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? Itsy bitsy teeny weenie black bikini 4-WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW? Pining? Or perhaps self-loathing. 5-WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT TO EAT WITH? Duncan, Chrystal, that stoner dude. 6-IF U WERE A TOY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE? Mobius strip. 7-WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON? Anywhere warm, with a beach. Secluded and private for cuddles, but civilization nearby. 8-WHATS YOUR RING TONE? Vibrate? 9-WHAT DO YOU THINK A TOBLERONE IS? A chocolate bar that doesn't know it should be a bar. 10-WHAT R U WEARING RIGHT NOW? My heart on my sleeve. 11-DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yeah, and they're fucking killing my eyes 12-WHAT WAS THE BEST ADVICE EVER GIVEN TO YOU? Let go and let God. 13-DO U OWN A VEHICLE? Bike and my own two feet. 14-WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS? One day at a time. 15-FAVOURITE FILM? Sappy romances, probably Cherish. Or Totoro, cause I grew up with it. 16-LAST FILM YOU SAW AT CINEMA? No clue 17 is missing, isn't it? 18-DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE? Like nobody's looking. 19-ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK ANYONE OUT? Unfortunately not. 20-DO YOU SLEEP NAKED? I actually like to, because my sheets are really fucking soft. 21-KISSES OR HUGS? Cuddles. Hugs can be impersonal, as kisses. Cuddles are really special to me, for some reason. I think I've only cuddled three people in my life. Damn you woman, learn how to number. 24-WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? The one I'm feeling now. Oh fuck the numbers. 28-HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LET THE PHONE RING BEFORE YOU ANSWER IT? Until caller ID tells me who's calling 29-ZODIAC SIGN? Cancer. Great self esteem boost. 30-IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? Half full. Life is no fun for a pessimist or a cynic. 31- BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE?? Ass? It's a bit too big though. Probably my hair. 32-MILK- WHITE OR CHOCOLATE? Skim. 33-DAY OR NIGHT? Late night, 2 AMish. 34-SUMMER OR WINTER? Both have advantages. Summer for frolicking, winter for fires and snuggles indoors. Or outdoors under a blanket shivering your ass off. 35-CAKE OR PIE? Yes, damn it. 36-DIAMONDS OR PEARLS? Diamonds are beautiful, but I think should be reserved for wedding rings and JLo. Too much takes the specialness out of them. 37-SUNRISE OR SUNSET Sunset. 38-HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A BONE Is a heart a bone? 39-DO YOU HATE ANYONE? Myself. 40-DO YOU BELIEVE IN FIGHTING? For something you believe in. Hopefully peacefully, but if not- bring out the infantry. 41-WHO DO YOU TURN TO FOR ADVICE? That little voice in my head that tells me what's right. 42-HAVE ONE SKILL IN LIFE WHAT WOULD IT BE? Be good at what I love. 43-WHERE ARE YOUR FAVORITE PLACES TO SHOP? Thrift stores, internet. Fredericks is lovely. 44-WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WEBSITE? LJ 45-WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP. Volcanologist. Yeah yeah, I'm a dork. So shoot me. Current Mood: crappy

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05:46 pm Fuck you too, life. Current Mood: regretful

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February 11th, 2005

04:46 pm Et tu uterus? Et tu? Not much really happened today. Aside from Newspaper, in which the editors bitched at each other for being too political. Annalee is totally PMSing. But then Mrs. Krizmanich had me clap the erasers. That was an adventure. At first I leaned out the window to do it, but the cloud of chalk dust came back in. Then I went outside, but the wind kept changing so I had to keep dodging the cloud of bright green chalk dust (she uses sidewalk chalk). I'm sure I looked...special. I ended up getting it all over my black sweater though, despite my valiant efforts. Rapid unplanned weight loss count: -2 since yesterday. Ten pounds in four days. Yey..I guess? Current Mood: blah

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February 10th, 2005

11:10 pm My favorite hobby does seem to be sabotaging my own happiness, doesn't it? Current Mood: frustrated with self Current Music: or perhaps rage against the machine

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February 9th, 2005

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04:36 pm - Watched her smile fade away ... Current Mood: crushed

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February 8th, 2005

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January 30th, 2005

08:06 pm Hahaha. If only they knew. Current Mood: crushed

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January 8th, 2005

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January 1st, 2005

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December 31st, 2004

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December 27th, 2004

02:59 pm I should probably post something about this, since people might want to know. So, Wednesday I get to go to the happy sonogram place to have people take pictures of my ovary. Because apparently, it's kind of fucked. Like tumor/cancer/something that needs surgery fucked. There is a chance that whatever it is will go away on its own...but it's a fairly low chance, considering that it's been messed up and painful for so long. But it's not deadly, no I won't die, and people shouldn't worry. Just FYI, in case I've been a bit bitchy recently, you know the reason. ( But there is good news! ) On a much gayer note, who's up for Rocky this Friday? Anyone, anyone? Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Bauhaus

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